Ever woken up and wondered what happened to your life? Dreams... hopes... aspirations? Where did it all go?
Pants won't fit? Taking longer to get your head off that pilllow ? And then wham, you look in the mirror ! In your head you're 20 but staring back is some stranger...looking omg 50! How did that person get in here? Folk telling you things that don't quite sit well with the big giant plans that you have been carrying about in the ' when i get around to it' section? But I haven't done that yet! Screaming through your house and you come across a child and you feel a get yourself together (mother voice in the background) moment! Then you sit , get the coffee(fags optional cos you've told them all that you've quit) and think **** this is my life! Menopause isn't it just mental!
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ReplyDeleteAnother day dawned and looking in the mirror wasn't so bad.... Child off to school and a free day lies ahead! No such luck..pile of ironing beckons from the cupboard, breakfast dishes bobbing up and down...uni work sitting alert on the desk.. gas company muzak droning...and then it's time to sort out my life. List of things I want to do..seems to get waylaid by the archives of Desert Island Disc wafting through.. enjoying the feeling of doing absolutely nothing ! Feeling of deja vu, recognise this feeling of not quite belonging, not fitting in and hey it hits me. Making friends again with my adolescence! Full circle or is it cycle? Makes me feel like a washing machine! Turn the dial to hot and another to cold! Where is the celebrating of getting old? Feeling maturer and surer..when does the dust settle? Where has the time gone and what happened to yesterday? Lots of questions but will there be enough time? Thinking of lovers lost- but not forgotten and wondering how Adele at 21 can capture emotions that no one young should have the depth of understanding to evoke in beautiful phrases..
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